Are you afraid?

“Let us acknowledge the Lord; let us press on to acknowledge Him. As surely as the sun rises, He will appear; He will come to us like the winter rains, like the spring rains that water the earth”-Hosea 6:3

If God is like rain, I am but an empty vessel. Will He not fill me? 

Been spending time alone nowadays, everyone is either working or busy. Jewel is working, Sarah never replies my texts (annoying kid seriously), Hon is busy with other friends, and the only person I see regularly is Ruki. But well, these few days are not wasted. I decided to spend more time with God and my family. The Lord has revealed to me a lot these days, letting me know more about myself and what have I been doing with my life. Somehow, He let me realize that I still allow myself to be trapped in what other people say about me, and this is the time i must even so root my identity in Christ, because Psalms 139 says that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. These days I am also trying to memorize more bible verses to get me through army. I really should have done so long long time ago but I guess it’s better late than never :3

Been exercising quite a bit lately, my super unfit body is starting to feel fitter again, but whether I can really survive army will be another matter la. Preparing myself mentally for what is to come as well. Come what may, I will overcome. 

On a more serious mode, I’ve been feeling emotionally erratic these days. Maybe even bipolar. Maybe it is because of transitions, or maybe due to things in my heart that I have not settled. Well then, I had better get them settled soon. I am not to start 2012 with a heavy heart. If it is time to change perspective, I will. If it is time to move on, I will as well. Most importantly, I want to live free, live happy, and live for a greater purpose. 

This 2012, I am going to treasure my close friends and family, embrace change, and walk in the path the Lord has chosen for me. Be more confident of myself and receive constructive criticism with a heart of humility, accept praise with with graciousness, and learn how to put in more effort into relationships, before I really become “Forever Alone” hurhurhur.